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Jessica Bolyard

Journeying Home Together

Homeward Bound

March 8, 2013 by Jessica Bolyard 2 Comments

I’m linking up today with 5-Minute Friday, hosted by the fabulous Lisa-Jo Baker.  It’s a challenge to write for 5 minutes and 5 minutes only, solely for the sake of writing.  Not for perfection.  Not for impact.  Not for anything but the love of writing.  Today’s prompt?  HOME.

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The first time I remember uttering the words was during my freshman year of college.  Through tears and aching sadness, I wept into my pillow: I want to go home.

And then, during study abroad in Spain, over and over again to friends and whoever would listen: I want to go home.

Other times, too:  I don’t want to be here.  Out of town job training.  An extended vacation.  Long visits with faraway family.  I want to go home.

I never thought it was anything but homesickness for a house, that brick ranch-style with the azaleas in the yard and the arching pine trees overhead.  I thought it was a simple longing for that place and my family and the familiarity therein.  When those words came rising up from the core of my soul, I thought I literally just wanted to go back there.  To that house.  To that place.  With those people and those memories and that comfort.

A few years later, in the depths of unexplained sadness, the words came again.  I want to go home.  Only this time, I was home.  I was curled up in the bed I shared with my new husband.  In what should have been a joyous time in my life, I was sad and afraid and panicked.  Though I was in the house I called home…I wanted to go home.

And at that time, I realized that when my mouth said those words, my soul was saying something much more.  Wherever I am as I walk this earth, I am never home.  This is a temporary stopover on an eternal journey.  My heart will never stop weeping those words until I one day stand before my maker.  Then, on that day, the longing will cease and I will at last be home.

“If I find in myself a desire which no experience in this world can satisfy, the most probable explanation is that I was made for another world.” (C.S. Lewis, Mere Christianity)

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    Amy Tilson says

    March 8, 2013 at 9:33 am

    How awesome that I linked up right after you!! I embedded the building 429 video in my post! This was beautifully written. I’ve cried those same tears over and over again – both ways. I love that C.S. Lewis quote. it is one of my favorites. So blessed to have found a kindred spirit on this Friday morning!

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      Jessica says

      March 8, 2013 at 10:09 am

      Wow. I was GOING to include the video, but my daughter was begging for attention and I didn’t have time. 🙂 Kindred spirits, indeed! I’ll visit your blog later today – I look forward to it! 🙂

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